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I have to make you proud, Ronan. "My darling. I hope today I can manage to be a little productive. Poppy is so lucky. I miss you. Everything hurts. There was complete devastation. Not the spilled milk, not the I dont have enough time for myself because my kids keep me too busy, not the messes made, not the arguments that are had, not the strong-willed child that throws a fit over everything, not the I am too tired because my sick, child kept me up all night. Please. All I can say is I cannot believe all of this. show in Florida. Its been much too long. They didnt judge me. I let my body break down like it has been wanting to do. This will be how you live on and help others. I dont think this is normal. I feel calmer and more peaceful than I have in a very long time. Heres how Im going to get through the next two months. I had my iTunes on. He said he knew it. thru it all he still puts a smile on his face and the courage i see within him is just beyond amazing! I cannot seem to function. Having Quinn home makes me do things around here which you know Im not a fan of. I hope you are safe. I told you it was a word! We have had those picked out for a long time. Ryan Starr - Wikipedia They cant. Ummmm ouch!!! Changs Marathon is this Sunday. Mission accomplished without having a breakdown. Mascara and snot everywhere. I started to cry. Reliving the things you went through, has not been fun and its not what I want this book to be about, so Ive been trying to make this section, as short as possible. Tomorrow is here, too. Ryan Starr was born Tiffany Montgomery in the Sunland neighborhood of Los Angeles, California, a place where she once described as a "middle of nowhere town, up in the hills - like, horse country." Her elementary, middle, and high schools were all about "a block from one another" in her words, and growing up, Starr considered herself to be "a small-town tomboy". Even if you dont mean it or dont feel like it. You know what I told him today? How do I even put into words, who he is? Ive been having flashbacks of the end of your days, off and on today. Please bring him back. We shall see if I succeed this year. I spent the rest of the day, resting and trying not to be resentful for it. I hope you are safe. To cry. Thats all I needed to hear. I miss you. Quinn had 18 points last weekend. What in the hell is that all about? Its all I can do just to survive it. As in The Ronan Thompson Foundation has an office! I dont think there is any deciding until we actually see this baby girl. That means everything to me. Ronan. It has nothing to do with science. I am further along than that, but not much. My face seems to be constantly wet these days. I truly expected more from you. Grief. I still get mad a lot but I find that I am not as reactive with my anger. I miss you so much. Mostly it is still so painful that I find myself trying to block out the memories of that horrific time from flooding my mind. Bobby Eugene Nutt [1] (April 3, 1951 - June 8, 2017), better known by his ring name Ron Starr, was an American professional wrestler. I dont feel brave. I was mesmerized by her. He was my best friend, the love of my life.. this cant be real. This led to me sending him an email back saying in no way, shape or form, was I too harsh. We watched their little boys Lacrosse game. I might just fall asleep with a smile on my face tonight and I might just be going out to New York City in a few weeks. His keys, our son, on our dresser. I don't have any idea who that is." I looked up at Mr. Sparkly Eyes, and yes, his eyes still sparkle. I was laying in bed. Your brothers. 6 would have been much better. I need your help. I honestly do. Poppy is developing such a little personality and at 7 months, is already trying to walk. I remember last year, I couldnt even pack my suitcase. I was aching to see your little face so badly that I wanted to throw up. There is a missing layer to all of this and it is only something that Dr. Badass JoRo can deliver. I dont like when I have to stay cooped up all day, not running around doing 50 million things. After the Lacrosse game, we all went to lunch. This is such a pattern, him in my dreams, always when I am dreaming about you in whatever way that I am. I am so tired of this life without you. It started Wednesday night. Because at the end of the day, its not complicated at all. We talked a lot about you, about her son and all the things you are making happen in this world. Running on the beach. As I said before, everything with your Poppy sister looks great, but I still sat and told Dr. Schwartz about how I made the ultrasound technician check for any type of mass in Poppys body. I remember with all of you, I read that book, What To Expect, When Youre Expecting. I carried that thing around with me like it was my bible. I miss you. It was Dr. Schwartz telling me that she just got the flu shot in and she was highly recommending that I get one. He is someone you loved so much. Simple words that go such a long way. I was walking back to my car and I just fucking lost it. I have a ways to go. I love you so much. Sorry if that was TMI, but if youve ever carried a baby, you know what I am talking about. What do you mean, no more pictures of Baby Ro? I love people like that. I was rocking her yesterday and your daddy came in to check on us. I love you. Trying to live this life the best I can, without you. I have been so public with everything and after everything we have gone through, I want this little girl to enter this world as peacefully as possible. I had visions of organizing a protest outside the White House. I dont know what this dream meant. I know I used the word unfair through my tears. I am truly thankful for all of you. My internal clock has been waking me up at about 2 a.m. for months now. Peach Pie, Apple Pie, Cherry Pie yes please. You were just so happy being home with all of us. I hope you are safe. I am so sorry that you had to be taken away. I told her the Carolyn news. I know this lesson they are learning in life and about your story will shape them in a way that they will go on to do amazing things. The little mannequin dressed up like you, looked just like you did when you actually wore the costume. Go, go, go. They are both so excited. Thanks for writing them. We also know some changes are going to have to come, in order to start raising the serious about of money, that we want to raise. I got through your diagnoses and I had no idea writing about that again would leave my head spinning in the way that it did. I really wanted a girl. She will be great to have along with me to help with the business things that we are dealing with. Are you home now?, Me: No. I will never stop fighting for all that was taken away from you. Laughing as you would pick all the flowers around our neighborhood from other peoples yards, thinking you were so naughty for doing so. I guess I wrote a lot about having another baby when you were still here. Its hard to have the all ripped away and still look on the bright side of things. I dont think you ever knew you were going to die, Ronan. I look forward to watching what she does in regards to Neuroblastoma. Nothing gets easier. Thank you for bringing her to us. Almost 4 years, will never be enough. Do I usually have this hard of a time, every year, right before the holidays? I understand. I feel like its taken a long time for the 4 of us to find our rhythm again here, without you. Ronan. I had visions of the signs I would hold, while bouncing Poppy on my hip. Its about helping other people as much as I can and in anyway that I can in this totally fucked up world where I cannot even see Christmas lights properly because they are always so blurry from my falling tears. She talked about how she was so excited to run this but then pulling up to park and seeing your little face on the poster was just awful. My days feel so sad and lonely without you here, and with me, being stuck at home because I am literally too tired to function. He made me promise that I would rest and put my feet up. I dont know why you continue to do things like this. All I did was try to get in a few runs before the big event so I could actually try to make it around the lake without having to be pushed in a wheel barrel. Wouldnt every mama walk to the end of the earth to make sure their childs legacy lives on? These kids, deserve to be embraced. Not because he thinks I am wrong, but I think he likes to provoke me into thinking long and hard about things from every angle, before I take such a strong stance. I can do a city, all alone, and badass, any other month, but not this month. on 2 a.m. Insomnia Parties With A Raccoon and ACat. My heart will forever be broken in a way that is just not repairable. He didnt answer. Because he is the best daddy ever, he will. I have taught myself it is better to go into something not expecting a thing that way less disappointments occur. I went, not knowing what to expect and it was a total adventure. I was only there, for you. I know how much your heart is broken. All I know is we have 3 bedrooms in our house and yours will not be turned into a nursery. Your brothers happiness is proof of that. Because youve pushed everyone away. I didnt want everyone in that room to see the data that was being presented in front of their faces in a scientific form. I have tried to be as productive as possible. me: UGH. I told them it was o.k. He is a man that cares and sticks to his word. Having your Poppy sister has saved me. He told me to please go and get it done. I have the best doctor I know in Omaha at the ER waiting for you. Happily. I opened the card and it was from some girls that live in our neighborhood. I will take this Macegiving to count the things that I am thankful for, on one hand. If it was not, things like this would not just continue to happen over and over again. I think that is appropriate since it is the day that cancer stole you. Me: Do you think Ill ever stop being so sad?, Him: Darling. I met with one editor from a certain publishing house, more than once. For as much as I can say all I care about is a healthy baby, the truth is, a little girl would mean so much mainly for the fact that you wanted a baby sister. Next month. Last night, when I woke up in that hotel room, only to find your daddy and brothers, and you were nowhere to be found.. well, what can I say? This was my idea as I knew we were going to need a way to get a laugh and some smiles on this trip. The stars magically aligned for the worst reasons possible so your Fairy RoMo has been in AZ for a little over a week now. He deserved to be mine, for much longer than almost 4 years. How much you wanted a baby sister. Then I went down that road. Lights out for the next 7 hours. I thought that name sounded cute, so that is why. We went to dinner. I think I stumbled on a few things. It was an emotional day but so rewarding as well. That is important to our family. I wonder if my never-ending tears are because of how much I miss you, or all of my hormones due to being pregnant or a combination of everything. AKA-the Devil. We have days that we still trip, stumble and fall. I never thought I would have a girl, but have always felt like I was meant to have one. I got a text from your Sparkly.

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